before I forget
We started off slow, a dance unclothed
We cared for not a second past or for a second before
You broke yourself into my bathroom and wrapped yourself around me
While I sat naked in the tub, tripping under ice pick waters
Or was I curled over the toilet?
Regurgitating wasted love from the pits of my stomach
You saved me with a blue dream that night
We drank cheap wine and smoked good weed
Glasses clunk in content
Lungs heaving pleasure sighs
Remember that one night I screamed
out of damaged pride and a scorned tongue
Into the telephone and into your blameless ears with a voice
So cold that it froze winter mid season
I told you I’m not afraid to leave you
We walked from the East River to the west that one night, remember
Stumbling happily and drunken with ecstasy
But then you felt terrible
So I hailed a cab but he stared with suspicion
From his foggy rear view mirror at
Glazed pupils and perspiring skin
I panicked and we jumped out
Ran for our lives the rest of the way home
We sat at our corner booth and it was there I saw it first
Beads of anxious sweat jumping off the cliffs of your forehead
Your heart palpitating in fear
You motioned for a beer and I silently held your hand
The same hand I’d squeeze when we’d walk the village
You’d fall asleep in my bed, waiting for tired eyes to call it a night
But I never came
The day after I left you
You told me I’d be great
Thank you
Enough, now
